I don't update my blog very often. But i'll try to, haha. I'm very obsessive, I get sick easily, and I love to draw, sing, and sleep.
my hobbies include playing games (twewy, kingdom hearts & final fantasy!), drawing, cosplaying, and other random things like papercrafts and eating ice cream.
I'm obsessed with wicked, and would love to be on broadway some day.

I feel so freaking alone.

Unwanted. Ugh. I feel so ignored all the time.
I guess that's what happens when you have a huge group of friends. There's no you, theres no individualism. Maybe thats why I dated in the first place. To gain acceptance.
It's generally why I befriended, well, shy, outspoken people. I think I helped them. I've revelled in being able for them to gain confidence and for me to experience change in a person.

Now, they practically ignore me.


Maybe that is the gift?

Right, I'm not going to pretend anymore. No more ploys to grab attention.
I've done everything + 1 for my friends, and I don't know, it would be nice to get a little recognition for once. Something to show appreciation. Eh, whatever. Don't run off to shower me with gifts and compliments now- It doesn't matter much now i've said it. But yeah.

I give up. I'l just be who I want to be.

To anyone reading this, if you ever need help, or me in general, -waves- i'll be still here. Just a lot less lively and obnoxious as I used to be.

I'm going to try making new friends, maybe. Maybe they'll care. Not saying my current group of friends dont care, it's just... eh, I don't know.

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