I don't update my blog very often. But i'll try to, haha. I'm very obsessive, I get sick easily, and I love to draw, sing, and sleep.
my hobbies include playing games (twewy, kingdom hearts & final fantasy!), drawing, cosplaying, and other random things like papercrafts and eating ice cream.
I'm obsessed with wicked, and would love to be on broadway some day.

Your hands-
And they will not let me go,
No they will not let me go!

C:
Man, I am so obsessed with FFXIII. <3
There should be more singers in the world like Leona Lewis.
She's amazing. Her vocal range is whoa, and her voice is beautiful. <3

/okay end ramble

Labels: final fantasy xiii, leona lewis, musing

@Diana;

I REALLY WISHED YOU HAD COME I SWEAR.

Pippa was so amazing! I wasn't expecting much after Jemma; Jemma being the elite Elphaba she is, but holy freaking crap, Pippa is awesome. c':
Her DG riff I can't stop raving about.
I love Pippa but Jemma's still my favourite because she's so awesome. <3

AND LUCY LUCY LUCY -does popular toss toss with weird hand dippy thing-
THAT WAS SO EPIC IT WAS LIKE LOL WHAT. ANYWAYS EEEEEEEEEEEEEE I think i'm still on highhhhhh.

Lucy wasn't to strong on her vocal parts though. In some places she sounded screetchy and off tune, but she is such a sweetheart! She's so kind and courteous and she's so pretty. She was totally good with autographs and she's so sweet. c':

And ELISA OMG. She's so pretty and we couldn't stop raving on how how pretty she was and how kind she was to us. c':

I missed zoe sdgfdsgaffadhgadh ;____; WE MISSED HER TWICE but I was kind of reluctant to ask her cause I heard she was kind of siiick and I don't want to trouble her OTL;

ALL THE POPPIES IN INTG DIDNT COME OUT. I WAS LIKE WTF WHERE ARE THE POPPIES. Only one flowerbed came out. hahaha.
There were a few other mishaps that you couldn't pick up on unless you've studied the show carefully, including maggie's slip up on "believe not what she says" ; she did "believe nothing she says". /shot
Rob slipped up on a line I think; and Bert missed the high note on A Sentimental Man. Pippa went an octave higher at the end not of INTG, but I would have done that too so i'm not surprised 8D.

LUCY'S NECKLACE CHANGED. WTF. It's not a necklace i've seen before! Unlike all the other necklaces, lucy's new one is beaded blue all around her neck as opposed to the snowflake/bead at the bottom. As well as that, her earrings were different in "popular", as well as the necklace which turned silver and rather chunky.

I pay too much attention.
I even saw Pippa's green spotlight. It's there all the time, you just cant see it unless you pay attention fully. Dorothy's hairstyle changed behind the curtain. Okay. I think i'm done.


EDIT: AND OMG OMG JAMES SMITHS' SHOES. HIS SHOES. OH MY GOD. HIS SHOES. I THINK I AM IN LOVE WITH HIS SHOES. THEY WERE GREEN. AND THEY LOOKED LIKE CONVERSES ALTHOUGH THEY WERENT. BUT OMG. HIS SHOES.
I really wish we could have gotten his autograph but we were too slow and he looked as if he was in a hurry anyway.

And hungry jacks lol. The chips were cooold D:
The burger was nice though. c':

Labels: lucy durack, musicals, musing, pippa grandison, rambling, rob mills, wicked

random dedications and links.

she doesn't want the weight of the world to fall on him. or her. or whoever.
she has an epic cravat. And an epic hand wobble thingy.
she has a barnacle beard.
she has really distracting things on her blogspot and it makes it all shiny and I love her background.
she is pure awesomeness. Enough said altogether.

I'll write more later.

As for me? I want to defy gravity.

Labels: musing, ramblings

I tried not to think of what might happen,
When your reality, finally, cuts through.
Well, as for me, I got out and I'm on the road.
The worst part it that this (THIS!), this could be you.
You know it too, you can't run from your shame!
You're not getting any younger, time,
Is passing by, but you waited awake..
It's time to roll over!
---
For once, those lyrics aren't directed at the person I was angry at.
Their directed at somebody else now.

I'm so busy. -shot-

Labels: lyrics, musing

Hey, Alexander.

Forgotten about us yet? Because it sure seems like you have. :l

I hope you like your present, Diana 8D
It's awesome. omg I swear 8D


I can't wait till saturday omg <3
Sumii and Diana have been talking about UP all week.. haha.

Labels: musing

I'd like to play Elle Woods or Glinda someday on broadway. They seem so fun to play!

Fat chance though. -laughs-
they're never going to hire an asian for the casting of either of them. c:

Elphaba, though, maybe.

Labels: legally blonde the musical, musicals, musing, wicked

oh my gosh.

I'm not so over confident anymore. -la emoticon here nao plz.-
I remember when I realised I sounded liek crap and then went all emo cause I fail liek that.
BUT NOW, I JUST WANT TO GET BETTER.

I think thats a good thing. <3

ANYWAYS. YEAH. HOW IS EVERYONE? Please please please leave a message in the cbox pleaaase.

Labels: musing

I feel so freaking alone.

Unwanted. Ugh. I feel so ignored all the time.
I guess that's what happens when you have a huge group of friends. There's no you, theres no individualism. Maybe thats why I dated in the first place. To gain acceptance.
It's generally why I befriended, well, shy, outspoken people. I think I helped them. I've revelled in being able for them to gain confidence and for me to experience change in a person.

Now, they practically ignore me.


Maybe that is the gift?

Right, I'm not going to pretend anymore. No more ploys to grab attention.
I've done everything + 1 for my friends, and I don't know, it would be nice to get a little recognition for once. Something to show appreciation. Eh, whatever. Don't run off to shower me with gifts and compliments now- It doesn't matter much now i've said it. But yeah.

I give up. I'l just be who I want to be.

To anyone reading this, if you ever need help, or me in general, -waves- i'll be still here. Just a lot less lively and obnoxious as I used to be.

I'm going to try making new friends, maybe. Maybe they'll care. Not saying my current group of friends dont care, it's just... eh, I don't know.

Labels: musing

Today I found out that my blog, out of Edi, Kylie, and whoever knows else's blogs, is not blocked by school servers. I feel kind of speshul now.

On a second note, it feels weird without Alex. :l
sdfsdfsdfsdf.

On a third note, I really want to read fanfiction. Yes, I fail. There's nothing you can do about it 8D.

Labels: musing, rambling

If I ever have children, if shes a girl, i'll name her Eden. And if hes a guy, i'll name him Fiyero. Isn't Fiyero the most beautiful boys name you've ever heard, seriously? :L -shot-

SORRY THAT WAS KIND OF RANDOM.

Labels: musing, wicked

I think i'm finally willing to let go.

I'm sorry for being cold these past months.
And I forgive you.


Now that's done, I think I can smile now.
Well, at least until monday. ;___;

Labels: musing

I think i'm still in that period of shock. It's like- what, alex is leaving!? It feels so surreal; I don't know. the realisation will kick in sometime soon.

Secondly, I need to get this off my chest. Why do people insist that guys and girls cannot be friends? Why is that, that a group of friends can't exist without some sort of romantic relationship rumoured to be inside it? What does it matter anyway? True love and romantic true love should be the same thing.

It's a general stereotype, and it drives me insane. I'm practically a walking contradiction according to my father, then. Sure, i've made mistakes, but they make us who we are. I'm no longer the naive, love-struck girl I was a few months ago. I've definitely matured, and thank lurline for that. But, I think i'm still a little too scared to tell my parents i'm seriously considering taking up musical theatre as my major. I don't think i'd prefer it any other way. I want to make it to broadway, contrary to many people think.

I'm asian. I go to the second best school in the state academic-wise, and yet i'm pursuing something at the bottom of most of the school's career choices. I want to be the type of person to inspire people and take people to heart. I want to stop and listen to the people around me and take care in whatever their circumstances, I want to help and reach out to those in need because I know how I felt like when there was no one to hold my hand.

I think i'm done rambling now.

Labels: musing, rambling

(you. what did you think I would say, you can't run away, no you can't run away (you wouldn't!). I never wanted to say this, (you never wanted to stay), I put my FAITH in you, SO MUCH FAITH and then you just THREW IT AWAY. )

I was just thinking today, If I had the chance to change one thing about myself/my past, I wouldn't change a thing, because my experiences made me who I am today, and I wouldn't change that for the world.

Thankyou for bringing into that emotional crap you never meant to drag me into, and i'm thankful it's now and not four years later. Thanks to you, I know rejection and the feeling of being used. Thanks to you, I have dreams to pursue. Consider it lessons well learnt.

I don't mean this in a hateful way- but you have shaped who I am today, and i'm more than content with who I am at the moment.

Labels: musing, ranting

Now that i'm sitting here, thinking it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.

OKAY I'M DONE.
I have not suddently started being a taylor swift fan. /lies

Labels: musing, pessimism, rant, reopening wounds

"Say theres no future for us as a pair,
I don't know, I may know,
I don't care."

this.
I love that community. c: It's so cuuute. I might try making cupcakes soon. o:
oh, and this is win too.

I'm still sick, blergh. But on the other hand, I see Hattie stopped posting offensive blogs after all the hate mail she recieved in her last one. I hope she doesn't return to her mean ways. :/

Anyawys, random update. I'm so tired. How is everyone?

Labels: anti twilight, musing