I don't update my blog very often. But i'll try to, haha. I'm very obsessive, I get sick easily, and I love to draw, sing, and sleep.
my hobbies include playing games (twewy, kingdom hearts & final fantasy!), drawing, cosplaying, and other random things like papercrafts and eating ice cream.
I'm obsessed with wicked, and would love to be on broadway some day.

I remembered what I was going to write. I planned it already.


....And now i've forgotten. Hahaha.
Not much has happened. Twisted my ankle on Friday after falling over a step, oops~
I'm alive, people. I'm alive.

Merlin today was awesome <3
and KHR! <3333 eeeeeee
/addicted hahaha.

THE GYAKUTEN SAIBAN ORCHESTRAL ALBUM IS THE BEST THING SINCE FRENCH FRIES.

I am so happy.

Labels: bored, not on high, ohhai

i'm so glad I found an angel,
someone,
who was there when all my hopes fell,
I want to fly looking in your eyes ~!


god I love jesse mccartney. /so old school hahaha.
SQUEAAAAAAL I swear hahaha.


/needs to stop fangirlingggg
eeeeeeeeeee jesse mccartneyyy omg I need to play kh2 again ;A;

NEW LAYOUT.

what do you guys think?

leave a comment please~ C:

NO GOOOD DEEEEEEEEEEEEED WILL I DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
AAAGGAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNN~~!!!!

...lul I felt like doing that.

50th BLOG POST WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

-dances-

There might have been a time when I'd give myself away,
(oh) once upon a time,
I didn't give a damn,
But now,
here we are,
so what do you want from me?


JAMES MARSDEN.
ON HAIRSPRAY.
LAST NIGHT.


OH MY GOSH I THINK I DIED LAST NIGHT OF SPAAAZZZZING.
my dad probably thought that I have a problem or something

Just need to get something out, kay?

It's your fate. Your choices.
But we have feelings too.
We're looking down from the sidelines, and it's up to you to make the decisions.
So far, you've been ignoring our pleas.
Is it for the best? We don't have a clue.
But we're people. We grow weary.
So if you glance back during a predicament and we're not there, don't say we didn't warn you.

That's all for today.

Man, that sounded gloomy.

I have tsubasa on my mind and all i'm thinking is ~ FANTASY PLOT ~ with OMG YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR FATE IT ISNT TOO LATE and KURO FAIII and MOKONA DAWW YOURE SO CUUTE.

Yeah. hahah. :'3

found this over dA here, and I just had to share.


dear you,

hello love. i haven't talked to you for a while now, how have you been holding up without me? i know that life will always throw it's rusting metal obstacles at you, but don't give up hope, dear heart. those bleeding scars will fade eventually, and you won't even notice them after a while.
just remember to bandage them tight; they tend to re-open often.

love, me.

-

dear you,

remember your bottle? throw it away love. you probably need it more than anyone else I know, but it does you no good in keeping it. but you insist on clutching onto this life line, so take my advice: just empty it out, and start afresh.
they were right you know. you can be amazing. but don't let that go to your head dear, you need to leave some shred of modesty at least.

love, me.

-

dear you,

you're not the most beautiful girl i've seen, though you can pass for being pretty and cute, but always remember this: he loves you, and nothing changes that.
so don't feel the need to go on a freak diet, or change your hair style to suit his taste, because hey, if he had taste then he wouldn't give a damn about your hair.
just because you might not be as physically pleasing as she is, remember that he thinks you're the most gorgeous girl he's ever seen.

love, me.

-

dear you,

love, you've got to start to think about yourself for once. you think it might be selfish, but that's because you've never done this thing before. remember, it doesn't hurt for once to eat what you want to eat, to go out to places where you want to go. 'i don't mind' needs to be scrapped from your vocabulary and burned along with all those bits of paper with love hearts doodled across them.

love, me.

OHOHO. I've done a kylie.

This is something I wrote last night. It sounds all ~epic~ and ~tragic~ but eh.
I was lazy and half asleep so apologies for my crap ass writing.

A little Pollux drabble. The poor thing ;A;
This is really cliche and terrible, and I felt like writing something.
So yeah. My bad.

---

The shock of losing his twin hit him pretty bad.

Castor had this kind of reassuring personality which never failed to smooth things over. He had this way with words that could rival even Apollo himself (from what Pollux had heard from Alena of the Apollo cabin, he owned everyone at poetry readings). Sappy as that sounded, he had cried for days after his death, and this time, there was no one to reassure him.

His father wouldn't care much; father preferred to settle matters by himself, muttering furiously to no one and anyone (the insane man he was). Mom was kind and gentle, but constantly busy. Pollux loved his mom, and he knew she was devastated, but she always had a weird way of showing it, and it made Pollux uncomfortable and sick inside, so he avoided seeing her if he could.

So he suffered alone, refusing to talk to anyone but himself.

Somehow, he hoped, at the back of his mind, that he would try again at another life. Rebirth. The Isle of the Blest. But Pollux knew it wouldn't be easy. He could be anyone; perhaps the pigtailed daughter of the Asian couple that rented the apartment below his mom's, or (who knew?)the tubby, almost overweight ginger cat that prowled around the apartment blocks' front door, mewing timidly and demanding food from any passerby.

He hated to admit it, but the prospect of seeing Castor as somebody else, someone without the same eyes, without the same unruly hair, scared him.

When people had asked him aobut it, he'd turn a blind eye and pull a joke out of thin air. When his fellow campers got too intrusive, he would turn immensely bitter and walk away. He couldn't help it. He'd choke up and his throat would seal over whenever his brother's name came up in day to day conversation.

Survivor's guilt, they had called it.

Labels: random drabble

notice:
I've CLEARED the cbox.

I wasn't intending anyone to read this site but my immediate friends.
If you're outside my circle, so be it, this is the interwebs, but I'd like a name you can go by instead of something ambigous. (ex. Monday, Tuesday... OTL)

I might do a kylie and rage at everyone because I don't know who they are. D:

Remember, I can block your IP address from this site and the cbox.

whoa, whoa, I was kind of not expecting that reaction. thankyou guys for caring ;A;

Okay, I realise that i've kind of been selfish. and although it's okay to be selfish at times, then was not the time. And for that, i'm sorry.

Oh, and the whole Kasey Bowman fiasco, heads up, imo she's not a bad person. I recieved a reply from the note I sent her on dA, and she was very kind and polite and I'm glad I wasn't blinded by my hate ;A; The unfortunate thing is that people don't seem to believe her @ her apology. :l

I wish the world would take off their blindfolds and see people for who they really are. I hate how people can't trust other people these days.

No to be ~evangelistic~ or anything; i'm not pressurising anyone to do anything, or posting this so sound ~religious~ but I really have to give thanks to God this week. In fact, for everything I have. There was a testimony this week at church about the Child Soldiers in Uganda.

A woman who had escaped from the program was abducted a second time, and as punishment, the other children were forced to cut off her nose, lips and ears.

Be thankful for what you have.
Thanks to amazing people out there, they helped her and many other women with the same problems get to surgery. ;A; It was an amazing story and I felt teary afterwards. Lame explanation, but eh ;A;

SO YEAH.
And shoutout to my mom too, even though she'll probably never read.
I love my mom.
Happy Mothers Day!

Sucks you have to work today ;A;

I have a new layout planned for my blog 8D It should come in soon, i'm just still messing around with colourschemes and the like.

Labels: ahckkkkk, blog, mothers day, random musing tiemz

Mkay i'm feeling a little better now.

Thankyou Sumii, Diana, Ruby, others who have listened and understand my pain. Oh my lurline that sounds so emo i'm sorry. Hahaha. It's not that bad. I think i'm overreacting.

Anyways. Yeah. I'm pretty good. I really should be doing English but im procrastinating ohoho~
I want to do my new layout for my blog but I really dont have much in mind at the moment ;A;

Mien gott, I hope things start looking up.
I mean, I try to be nice and all, but I can only hold so much. ._.
Maybe it's selfish, but I want an apology. Why?
For the past few days, my school hours have been a cycle.
First i'm tired. Then, i'm happy. Then, i'm disappointed and a little angry. Then, I have this black cloud hanging over my head. Then, i'm even more disappointed, to the point of screaming. Then, the black cloud is kind of subsiding as I go home and feel better because of my other friends.

I could point my fingers to the stormbearer, but I'd much rather they'd ACTUALLY NOTICE WHAT AFFECT THEY HAD ON ME. And not only myself, but others too.
Like, I find myself forgiving the person every day, but it's a repeated cycle, and i'm quickly starting to get sick of it.

uggggggghhhhhh Im beginning to feel like crap againnnn.

Labels: black cloud hovering over head at present moment, blehhhhh, glee is on tonight and madonna ohmai, ugh

Now that's over, i've got a few matters of my own to settle.

I learnt something.
I learnt that I can't judge too quickly, especially when I haven't heard both sides of the story.
I learnt that no good deed goes unpunished, but most of the time the positive outweighs the negative.
I learnt that people are fickle. They're not observant. They don't give apology unless you poke around for one. So i've dropped the matter completely.

I hope you're happy.

It's obscene how people don't care, though. idk, I think i'm kind of starting to lose faith in my friends.
Maybe I expect too much.
emotional breakdown lol oh lurline don't mind me.

Why doesn't anyone listen to me anymore? :l

Labels: I want a dam nap, ugh